My Father and God I

My Father and God, I am scared

I feel extremely downcast in my soul

I have not dwelt on it in my mind

The result of the  Society investigations

Yet I know, even if I have not read it

Its presence bites me like venom

Its reception brought my joy down

And I can only look to You, my peace

You have been my defence, in bad times

My joy, in good and awesome times

You will not abandon me, nor forsake me

You will be with me, and lift me up

And again, I will write poetry of joy

And remember all the good You do

And no matter what, grace my innocence.

I trust in Your mercy; I believe in You!

My Father and God II

Oh, my Father, my dearest One, my God

The morning stands clear as purest gold

I see the garden, in well and clean sanitary

I think of only thing: to be in Your sanctuary

Indeed, I was like one burdened with stones

Strong, unbroken rocks broke all my bones

I agonized in my privacy, I cried silent tears

And, the reality was, I lived in terrible fears

Reason was the weapon against my joy

And in daily motions, I moved like a boy

But You’ve defended me with Your grace

And resettle my joy into Your safest place

The Society found me not guilty and skilled

Though it was You who all accusations killed

Therefore, all the glory is but Yours alone

And victory I return to You to have and own.

My Father and God III

Many people are talking about me in their privacy

They say, “Charles Mwewa no longer ministers,”

And that for Your Word, I do no more advocacy

But You Lord know about all of Satan’s sinisters

You are also acquainted with my inner thoughts

You have searched my heart and You are true

You’ve been with me and defended me from torts

Without You, the storms would bury me through

I have known You better, and my faith is strong

If You hadn’t brought me to this wilderness of tests

I wouldn’t have known You; I’d have been all wrong

But now I see who You are, I’m for Your interests

You, dear Lord, will not allow my foes to succeed,

More than I imagined, my abundance shall exceed.