Loved You Till Now
How can this love grip me so ephemerally, so eternally?
My soul ceased not to bleed, my heart swirls internally
O old lover, the rhythms of your youthful laughter
So endlessly leads me to incredible mental slaughter
I loved you once, in my heart forever you have a throne
I kissed you, O love, everlastingly you own my crown
You are tender, gentle and altogether unforgettable
Your sweet speech rings a tone so soft, so predictable
You’re unbelievable, lovely as a delicately played flute,
So lusciously felt in my tortured mind, O pretty fruit,
Our love knows no law, no weapon, no distance, no time,
Like two paths, we part not, O gorgeous, earthly prime!
No threats of discovery, no rights nor privileges dared stop me
I loved you more than divine binds could restrict, more than my own life
You were the star that shown daily when I got up, when I was awake
You made me defy all law, all rules and all the eyes that stopped not to gaze
I sat you front in a bus, opposite all those who judge character
I was not offended nor did I mind the minds of those who criticize falsely
I took you to the First House, I could only do so with you, my love
I was uneducated, untested and overtly afraid of other voices
But when I thought of you, all defences fell down, you conquered me
I have never stopped loving you, though the heavens may fall
And the earth totally passes away to another life strain
O Love, my soul longs for you like a tendon cherishes the vein
I never stop to think daily, all night, how that I can survive without you
O my love, my everything, when I saw you walk past, your legs
When I heard my heart speak and utter those words, “I will always…”
Now I know I meant what I thought, I will always do, O love
I curse daily the childhood infantile thoughts, the fear of vultures
Now I know, in life or in death, I will have no other my heart to hold
Whether you are here, away or with another, you’re always mine
Though the heavens become our new home, with you I’ll be fine!
Slaves to a Language
Day in and day out, I speak a language
This is but a baggage
I sing songs that are foreign to my accent
I divulge meaning without mental accent
I cry in the anti-native mantra, O souls that be past
I retire my real me, quietly and fast
Who will teach me that I sound awful
That to love anti-native is to be unlawful
I try hard, I want to fit in
But cracks wreak havoc within
Alas, all my efforts are but vanishing meteors
I perform with my mouth, am but a theater
Why? I ask, Why do I try to be like them?
Why do I publicly entertain verbal shame?
When my other tongue with negligence I murder
My father’s language without infamy I shudder
When my mother tongue I trash to the bin
And not to remember my own etymology, isn’t it a sin?
O language, why did I choose to utter love in a hateful verse?
To follow after wind, isn’t it a vainful chase?
Why did I decide to explain truth through lying lips?
And to get rich through slavery tips?
Why did I pay my dues with untried currency?
And pronounce hard Western surnames with intimate fervency?
Bring me home, O descendants never exposed to English
For my efforts to be another palaver are but foolish
The songs of my motherland are sweet
Only because I can understand them without sweat
Whom can we blame?
Because we did not inherit this from them?
Who instructed Parliament to drown our many dialects?
And substitute them with what we will never elect?
Cry my lovely ebony countrymen,
For who has polluted our portent semen?
Shout louder upon your foreign acquired semantics
And hide not in White-washed antics…
Shame, Oh spurious shame!
For only imitators perish in their own madness
Those who despise their history are but less
There is nothing authentic in borrowed fame
As no civilization has maturated without a name
I want to be free
I want to have ROOTS like a tree
From the accents that sound like a rotten egg
Their grammar we onerously beg
I want to say Muntu, not People!
I want to say Imfubu, not hippo!
In my own native accent
I sound better, freer and excellent
O, release me from an alien prison
To forget my language, is treason!